Can you believe that 9 months ago I was running a 1/2 marathon and now I am walking around my office - hoping to not have to go outside on the ice for fear that I may fall and have to go through PT another 6 months for yet another knee injury.

Actually - I am so thankful that I have legs that at one point allowed me to run! As much as this year has been a true challenge physically - it has been very rewarding spiritually and personally. I never realized how much I enjoy relaxing. Having time for myself, my friends, and most importantly God.

These past few months have shown me the importance of being still, not always by choice but it was always beneficial! It is true when people say that God teaches us the most during trials! This year trully has been a trial with my knees - In fact, it is almost comical to look back and think of all the things that have happened over the past 9 months!

God is so good - and I have learned so much! I am so thankful! Now - I just hope I don't fall when I leave the office today - or I will just have to lay there and laugh because just when you think nothing more can happen to my knee something will so I will just smile and say oh well!

Heart Day

So yeah... it is Valentine's Day - mixed feelings! I am pretty content with the fact that currently no guy is sending me flowers today, but I have to say that some people may be very sad today because they may have lost a loved one or something like that... or people could be really celebrate because we are all truly loved by the creator! That is something to rejoice about. SO I guess this Hallmark holiday is all about your mindset - esp. if you are single. In fact last night at SPY ( our youth group ) We were talking about the fact that we were going to make t-shirts that said Jesus is my valentine - don't worry - we didn't follow through!

It is snowing currently and it finally looks like winter around here in Central PA - it has felt like spring the past few weeks. Tonight is our big basketball game - the league championship. I am so proud of my girls - they have worked so hard to get to this place and no one expected anything from them - they were picked to finish 7th in the league. WOW! Win or lose tonight we have proved ourselves and we are headed to districts.

So my spiritual thought for the day is that - I need to be spending more time with God - for this Lenton season I have committed to spending time daily prayer journaling - it is helping already. Prayer is so important and I just get so frustrated about the fact that I have prayer ADD sometimes and I can't focus, this really has been helping me.

Lots of stuff to do today! I need an extra dose of energy to get through! God - be my strength today - give me energy when I have none, multiply my minutes so that I will be more productive - and best yet - help me to rely fully on you this day!

New at this!

So I am new at this whole idea of blogging but I have read others and it seems pretty cool and since I am an overly reflective person maybe this will be a great way for me to get out the things that I am thinking.

It has been a rough week but - God is so good - he has blessed me with a great friend who is willing to challenge me and ask me the tough questions! That is what I need someone who will be direct and tell me what I need to hear even if I already know it. Thanks friend!

For Lent this year, instead of giving something up - I have been challenged to do something in my relationship with God, so each day during Lent I am going to journal my prayers, since lately my prayer life just well... it sucks! I feell as though I have prayer ADD - I can't focus, I feel distant.. and it just is so frustrating.

This week has been a rock bottom week - but sometimes you have to get to that point to realize that I don't have it all together, and just deal with that - I internalize so much! I need to stop! I am at the point that I am physically ill! AHHHH!!!

"My grace is sufficient for you, My power is made perfect in weakness" 2Cor. 12:9

So now I leave with this verse as my verse to cling to for today! I am taking it one day at a time!

Lord you know my heart, you know my hurt, you know my weakness, and you love me anyway! Wow! Thank you for picking me up and dusting me off, for holding me close to your side when I feel so lost and empty. You are my rock, in you I will trust and obey!